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Sunday, June 17

The first time i saw you, I thought, "not bad."
The second time I saw you, I took the flyer you gave.
The third time I saw you, my heart skipped a beat, and I didnt dare to walk past that shop.
By that time, I had already taken a liking for you.
My friend who had a boyfriend once told me, "if she had 5 different lives, she would go to 5 different countries and try 5 different types of food and go to 5 different schools and meet 5 different types of people. and would like the same one person." I don't know if I'll ever feel that way but yes, I like you. That night, I tried to come up with reasons my feet didnt have the courage to bring me past that shop.
Maybe it was your looks. Maybe it's the way you talk with such sincerity to your friends. Maybe it's the way you smile at passer-bys. Maybe it's the way you remind me of somebody when you're so serious at work.
I don't know the reason at the moment, and I know it's impossible between us. But please continue giving me the illusion that you looked at me wasn't out of reflex, but because you noticed. The way you smiled at me wasn't because I was just another passer-by, but because you find me special. The way you laugh so cheerfully wasn't because you found the joke funny, but because you're in love.
Just let me continue admiring you from afar


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This is my new monologue. I dont know which one to choose la. ah well.

dep camp starts tomorrow. i dont feel llike sleeping now

oh yeah, Ichigo didnt go to school today beause today's Masaki's death anniversary.

May her soul be blissful inside Soul Society.

rainy days never stay, 7:26 am.

The first time i saw you, I thought, "not bad."
The second time I saw you, I took the flyer you gave.
The third time I saw you, my heart skipped a beat, and I didnt dare to walk past that shop.
By that time, I had already taken a liking for you.
My friend who had a boyfriend once told me, "if she had 5 different lives, she would go to 5 different countries and try 5 different types of food and go to 5 different schools and meet 5 different types of people. and would like the same one person." I don't know if I'll ever feel that way but yes, I like you. That night, I tried to come up with reasons my feet didnt have the courage to bring me past that shop.
Maybe it was your looks. Maybe it's the way you talk with such sincerity to your friends. Maybe it's the way you smile at passer-bys. Maybe it's the way you remind me of somebody when you're so serious at work.
I don't know the reason at the moment, and I know it's impossible between us. But please continue giving me the illusion that you looked at me wasn't out of reflex, but because you noticed. The way you smiled at me wasn't because I was just another passer-by, but because you find me special. The way you laugh so cheerfully wasn't because you found the joke funny, but because you're in love.
Just let me continue admiring you from afar


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This is my new monologue. I dont know which one to choose la. ah well.

dep camp starts tomorrow. i dont feel llike sleeping now

oh yeah, Ichigo didnt go to school today beause today's Masaki's death anniversary.

May her soul be blissful inside Soul Society.

rainy days never stay, 7:26 am.
Thursday, June 14

well, my monologue has finally been finalised. enjoy (tho i dun expect much)

You are like a lonely flower.
You always seem so happy. Whenever you smile, whenever you laugh around all your friends and family. Your smile has this magical feeling that makes me warm inside, and your laughter makes me wanna laugh too. I really felt that way, I really did! At least... I used to.
I can't tell if you're the same person I know. Your smile, you laughter, it isn't the same anymore, as though the petals had withered. You're really hurt inside here aren't you? Don't smile anymore, please cry, just for once. Let it all out, all the emotions you've spread over the land. It pains me to see you smile, is there no way to protect you till the end?
I remember last Summer when we went camping. You weren't there. Two petals fell from the firework we set. Did you see it too? I believe, even if these two petals are apart, they'll meet again someday.
If, perhaps, I got the chance to become a shooting star, I know I'll fly through the sky. I want to protect you and your fading smile, even if the resounding voices should falter, even if the mingling winds should laugh, I WILL FIND YOU. I'll shine light on your present. I'll grant you a sword for you to wield. I'll hold your hand. I'll stay by your side, for always.

So, don't give up! Spring comes after winter. Your real smile will bloom again. i will always protect you, so don't lose!
You lonely flower.
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I hope the picture isnt anti-climatic. XD

credits to
Ichirin no Hana, Houki Boshi, D-techno-Life! for the lyrics and Bleachexile.com for the translations. :D

rainy days never stay, 7:25 pm.
Wednesday, June 13



haha! these guys are freakin funny people! they are the cast of the BLEACH musical. the guy at the end who kena stabbed was my love Tatsuya Isaka :D ahaha! Tuti is freakin funny! he's the guy who played Gin.
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ok, he doesnt look glam in this pic but he's really CUTE! and there's another one, the guy who played Hitsugaya also looked so CUTE!
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cute isn't it? but they cant beat my Tatsuya Isaka!! >D

uh huh XD



rainy days never stay, 2:54 am.
Tuesday, June 12

below was my monologue we are supposed to do for DEP. haha. i was in a group writing about love and i chose infatuation as a topic. yay Renji! :D if that one was kuso, i would have to switch back to my Butterfly one.
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haha. be glad i didnt go
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haha. yay. i feel so happy, ive just been praised for my friendster profile :D Arigatou, Nica Taichou :D

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XD

this stupid connection's been freakin cursed i tell u.

KUSOOOOOOOOOO

it's like...... pmsing.

speaking of which, beware ppl, my pmsing period has arrived again.

i feel random

cant wait for 15 June - Sharon's Bdae! :D
17 June - Masaki's death anniversary(?)
18 June - Start ofDEP camp!
19 June - Bro and Sis-in-law and Oswald and Rachel are coming over!

ok, that's about my plans for the 3rd week

feel so sad. 2 weeks of hols has been wasted and all i've watched on youtube are BLEACH episode 127 and now loading 126. and theBLEACH musical Dark of the Bleeding Moon, it's ok, but i dont really understand what the charas are saying because theres no subbed version but the plot is basically the same as the Anime/Manga so no need much straining of ears. (and Tatsuya Isaka is so howt!

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look at his eyebrows and eyes ppl. and btw, the information i gave last time was inaccurate, ok, COMPLETELY off track. they are not acted by their seiyuus, so the guy i let you watch was not Morita-san. ): this is:



this is the the last part of the three part video of Morita-san VS Itou-san who voiced for RENJI :) listen to Morita-san's laughter, it's so manly :D


and Itou-san's pretty funny when he tried to voice Orihime :D

"Orihime JUMP!"

haha. kirstene and i were laughing over it on the phone yesterday for minutes. i was like, "you know ah, just now i go youtube search Morita then come out this video like last time i tell you, then got one part because Itou-san lost then now playing for Orihime then, then he... *LAUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH* then he... *LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH*"

kirstene: "HAHAHHAHA, amanda! hahahaha"

well, that was pretty much our entire conversation over the phone yesterday night.

buh bye :)

rainy days never stay, 1:28 am.
Monday, June 11

They say being in love makes everything you eat taste funny, and everything you see pink. It... hasn't happen to me yet, BUT i know it WILL happenm especially with HIM. yes, I'm in love. Just thinking about him brings a blissful smile to my face. He makes my heart flutter, he makes me wanna strain at the oars, he makes me wanna dance around the room, he makes me wanna... wanna... be embraced by his arm. What do I like about him? I like the way he ties up his shiny red hair, I like the way he tattooed his very hot body, I like the way he frowns, I like the way he smiles, I like the way he does silly stuff, I like the way he gets serious, I like the way he yells,"Hoero, Zabimaru!", I like the way he fights, I like the way he lets down his long hair, I like EVERYTHING about him. I LOVE him, and this will never end, not with my love for Renji. In fact, I DO believe I'm about to eat funny-tasting food and see pink pineapples. Love is blind? Love hurts? Kuso! Love is breathtaking, Love is amazing! At least, HE made me feel this way.
My friends told me it's impossible between us. Well, what do THEY know? I mean, so? Just because he has not seen me yet doesn't mean he would not in the future right? But still, I know my friends meant well and dowsn't want me to be hurt by love. Arigato, demo, Renji isn't that kind of person. Komen. My parents doesn't know about Renji yet, but I'm sure they wouldn't mind a 188 cm tall Shinigami who is older than me by a FEW centuries to be their son-in-law.
Everynight I've dreamt, dreamt that someday he would tell me with that sexy voice of his (well, technically it's itou-san's voice) that he likes me. "amanDa-chan, ore wa, ore wa, aishiteru." He would gaze soulfully into my eyes sincerely and move closer towards me. There, my first kiss. Then he would bring me into his embrace and press my face against his chest. Those big and warm hands made me feel as if nothing can destroy me, that slow, rhythmic heartbeat of his... I want this moment to last forever. I can't believe this is happening to me...
Well, tehnically it hasn't happened to me,BUT i know it WILL. Until that time comes, I will continue waiting on, reaching my hands out towards him every night, share a thousand year love.
When the Sakura blossoms.

rainy days never stay, 7:41 am.

> 1. Real name: amanDa - tt's it, im shutting up
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> 2. Nickname: mama, and im getting used to it.
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> 3. Status: ex-treasurer of sec 2e3 here!! SHINIGAMI OF GOTEI 13
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> 4. Zodiac sign: gemini (same as Hinamori and that freakin Aizen)
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> 5. Male or Female: Female
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> 6. Elementary: PAP
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> 7. Highschool: TKGS
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> 8. College: i wanna get into SHINIGAMI Academy!
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> 10. Hair color: BLACK.
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> 11. Long or short: unfortunately long. but if given a choice to style my hair anyway i like i wouldnt know how to answer this question already XD
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> 15. Are you a health freak? Anime/Manga/BLEACH/fishfaced freak, yes. other than that, no.
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> 16. Height: 156 and growin
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> 17. Do you like someone: YESHHH you want me to sae? ok! Renji and Grimmjow and Masakazu Morita and Tatsuya Isaka and Buttefly!
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> 18. Do you like yourself: who wouldnt?XD
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> 19. Piercings: the normal one piercing on each ear, unfortunately.
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> 20. Tattoos: nope, but i wanna get one just like Renji's :D
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> 21. Righty or lefty: RRRIGHT
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> 22. First surgery: when i was young, my whole set of teeth decayed so bad i need to go under op to clean them up XD
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> 23. First piercing: p5, a few days before p5 camp :D
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> 24. First best friend: MJ and in sec sch, Claud
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> 25. First award: ooh! ooh! Most Improved pupil in P2!!
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> 26. First sport you joined: Netball
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> 27. First pet: i used to blow up a balloon and drew a face on it and called her Lucy, she lasted for a week. well technically the answer is a hamster my tuition teacher gave called Cola, which escaped the next day
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> 28. First vacation: Batam - loooong ago
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> 29. First concert: Mayday!!!!!
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> 30. First crush : oo, that was so long ago. but i remember theres this guy i met in p1 call eben...
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> CURRENTLY
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> 49. Eating: nope
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> 50. Drinking: my saliveh
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> 52. Doing: answering this quiz and thinking about BLEACH ep 129!!
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> 55. Listening to: my father's nagging
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> 58. Want kids? YEAHHHH. adopt them! :D
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> 59. Want to get married? YESH
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> 60. Careers in mind? Mangaka/Seiyuu!!! (im already a Shinigami >D)
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> WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE
SEX?
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> 68. Lips or eyes: eyes
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> 69. Hugs or kisses: hugs, kissses can come later
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> 70. Shorter or taller: taller
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> 72. Romantic or spontaneous: both
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> 73. Nice stomach or nice arms: both

> 74. Sensitive or loud: sensitive and loud
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> 75. Hook-up or relationship: relationship laa
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> 77. Trouble maker or hesitant: both
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> HAVE YOU EVER
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> 78. Kissed a stranger: na-uh
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> 79. Drank bubbles: uhhhh
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> 80. Lost glasses/contact: yea! i rmb i was in p1 and lost my glasses than i go to sch one weel without glasses turns out that i hid them in a plastic bag and forgot about it XD
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> 81. Ran away from home: halfway- i only made it to the lift.
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> 84. Broken someone's heart: i hoped i had.
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> 85. Been arrested: wished i was
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> 86. Turned someone down: yea, i always told my friends to go down the stairs to get smth for me (im getting lame - WARNING)
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> 87. Cried when someone died: my grandmama.
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> 88. Liked a friend: i like all my friends :D
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> DO YOU BELIEVE IN
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> 89. Yourself: YES
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> 90. Miracles: YES
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> 91. Love at first sight: YES
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> 92. Heaven: no, only Soul Society and Hell exists
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> 93. Santa claus: no
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> 94. Sex on the first date : na-uh!
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> 95. Kiss on the first date: maybe but no.
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> ANSWER TRUTHFULLY ~
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> 97. Is there one person you want to
be with now? not one but 5!! :D
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> 98. Had more than one? what i said above! :D
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> 99. Do you believe in God? nope. only Shinigamis/Vaizards/Arrancars/Hollows/Bountos

> 100. Post as 100 Truths about me






71 things you might not know about
me.

1. What is your middle name?
+ a-m-a-n-D-a, i suppose it's a and n XD

2. How big is your bed?
+ as big as my body

3. What are you listening to right now?
+ My Pace - Sunset Swish ! :D i love the vocal's voice

4. What are the last 4 digits in your
cellphone number?
+ 2125 - that's the reverse of the number that appeared on one of the BLEACH manga book! :D

5. What was the last thing you ate?
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6. Last person who txted you?
+ my darling Renji :D *twirls herself*

7. How is the weather right now?
+ it's rainning Shinigamis and Zanpakutous.

8. Who was the last person you talked
to on the phone?
+ Renji *twists herself*

9. The first thing you notice about
the opposite sex?
+ see whether they have long red hair tied up and very nice tattoos and go "Hoero, Zabimaru!"

10. Favorite type of Food?
+ Konpakus *licks her mouth*

11. Do you want children? How many?
+ yeah :D hmm, that depends on how many times we're willing to do it

13. Ever get so drunk you don't
remember the entire night?
+ yea, drunk on Renji *dreamy eyes*

14. Hair color?
+ Black.

15. Eye color?
+ i cant see my eye

16. Do you wear eye contacts?
+ no. glasses is the way to go

17. Favorite holiday?
+ BLEACH day!

18. rainy?
+ huh?

19. Have you ever cried over a
girl/boy?
+ Yes unfortunately it's over Takumi. but it's good i havent cried over Renji - this shows that nothing has happened to him

20. Last Movie you Watched?
+ Window Movie Maker - the birthday video i was making for Renji

29. What books are you reading?
+ i dont read books you ichiban baka. Manga, MANGA

30. Piercing?
+ yeah, one earring with the kanji of "Ban" and another ring earring with roman numbers

31. Favorite Movie?
+ Memories of Nobody tho i have not watched it yet

32. Favorite college football team?
+ i hate football. i told you, manga, MANGA, Bleach, BLEACH

33. What were you doing before this?
+ answering question 32 and fantasizing about Renji

34. Any pets?
+ Kon! actually he's not a pet, he's my friend

35. Aim?
+ love BLEACHHHHHHHH and marry Renji!

38. Favorite Flower?
+ Sakura :) Byakuya's Zanpakuto

40. Have you ever loved someone?
+ Yup

41. Who would you like to see right
now?
+ ABARAI RENJI and KUBO TITE

42. Last time you cried?
+ when Takumi died

44. Do you like to travel by plane?
+ no

45. Right-handed or Left-handed?
+ Right.

46. If you could go to any place right
now where would you go?
+ Soul Society

47. Are you missing someone?
+ Yes.

49. Do you have a tattoo?
+ no ): but Renji has a great interest for it :D

50. Do you still watch cartoons on
Saturday mornings?
+ iie, they dont show BLEACH on saturday mornings

51. Are you hiding something from
someone?
+ yea, i still havent return kirstene her st media club shirt and she doesnt know it

52. Are you 18?
+ iie. but i dont ever want to be 18 - that's so OLD, but Renji is MATURE

54. Did you get enough sleep last nyt?
+ iie

55. First thing you thought about
this morning:
+ "ooh, BLEACH is showing already"

56. What do you have handy at your
bedside?
+ my love for Renji and BLEACH

57. Grilled or fried?
+ ...

59. When was the last time you saw
your best friend(s)?
+ I see Kon everyday.

60. Are you afraid of the dark?
+ iie, Renji is there to protect me

62. One person you can't live without?
+ Renji and Kubo Tite (no Kubo Tite-san = no BLEACH!! NO)

63. First thing you will buy if given
50 thousand dollars?
+ iie. money isnt the way to go (altho i have $2oo >D)

64. Favorite song/s?
+ (currently) Gomi Tamemitai na Machi de Oretachi wa Deatta - Renji (Kentarou Itou) and Rukia (Fumiko Orikasa)

65. What are you afraid of?
+ nothing. Renji is there.

66. Are you a giver or a taker?
+ duhhhhhhh........

67. What do people call you for short?
+ i... prefer not to answer this question *adjust specs*

68. Whats your dad's middle name?
+ i wonder

69. What's your mom's middle name?
+ i think...

70. Stuck on a deserted island and
could bring 4 things?
+ a Zanpakutou, my BLEACH Manga, BLEACH Anime and of course, Kon-chan

71. Favorite T.V. commercial?
+ BLEACH trailers

rainy days never stay, 7:05 am.
Saturday, June 9

check this out. it's part of the BLEACH Musical and this is my fav part. wanna see Masakazu Morita in action? look no further! just look below :D



he's my GOD


rainy days never stay, 10:46 am.

check this out. it's part of the BLEACH Musical and this is my fav part. wanna see Masakazu Morita in action? look no further! just look below :D



he's my GOD


rainy days never stay, 10:46 am.
Thursday, June 7

hello

i feel so random today

know what i did?

i walked past taka, and didnt got a good enough view of whether the guy there was Butterfly, i walked back again.

i saw that it was not, so i walk back and inevitably passed taka.

so the men there have like, seen me thrice.

l0l

and im being bimbotic right now

in case you dont know

of course, this was just a ahem act.

drama baby drama.

i feel so random

so i changed to this random song

and i posted because i want to get rid of that video below

not the content, the size is just too not fitting

one day i will figure out how to make this box <^>v bigger.

or i could make the video smaller

but in my case im lazy to change the drafts.

and i made a few friends from friendster groups.

well, at least i think i did, i dunno what they thought of me... ):

HELLO VALKYRIENZ-SAMA, BLACKROZE-SAMA AND DIONNE-SAMA! :D IF YOU'RE READING THIS JUST SMILE AND THINK ABOUT BLEACH! :D

i have learnt a lot from them.

do you know yuri actually meant lesbian in Japanese?

up till now ive always thought that was a name for girls.

XD

sa. soro soro!

Hoero, Zabiaru

rainy days never stay, 8:51 am.

HELLO

Amanda Tay
17
1st of June, 1993

TURN BACK?
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IT MIGHT BE GOOD TO WARN YOU THAT
▪ I am incessantly obsessed with anime/ manga/ Japanese stuff
▪ My mood swings are more unpredictable than Full Days
▪ Colourfully obscene words make up a big part of my life
▪ I am a firm believer of procrastination.


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